so crush me baby im all ears <3

dont_x_cry @ 2005-05-10T21:54:00

2005-05-11T01:48:54Z

my mom can choke on a dick.

dont_x_cry @ 2005-04-28T14:34:00

2005-04-28T18:32:24Z

derek fucking jeter was at foran today! oh my god. i used to be like overllyyy obbsessssed with him with ashley! we saw him walk and loooked at eachother and oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhgfegp;gojmgh'pkm

saturday<3

2005-04-06T02:35:11Z

<3333333333333333333333333333:):):):)

dont_x_cry @ 2005-03-25T20:44:00

2005-03-26T04:46:01Z

i would write what i did the past to nights but im to tired to so look iin lindsays journal about last night. it was amazing<3

then tonight sucked so fucking much. ilove when people say they have to talk to you and then DONT do it

dont_x_cry @ 2005-03-21T14:50:00

2005-03-21T19:54:59Z

this weekend was fun. then on sunday i had to go to freaking church at 10 in the morning for ccd because there cool and make us go. me and ashley werent even talking noticeably and of course they move us. then i saw my uncle who i havent since in like 2 years and my mom aunt and him and my sister and me went out to breakfest and me n my sister were talking and next year me her, her friend amanda and lindsay are going to go to like the bahamas or something and her and her friend will be 21 and its going to be fucking amazinggggg.. then i came home and talked to lindsay and she asked me to hang out and i went and got her and me her my aunt mom n sister went to the mall because i needed to get clothes. i got some cute stuff. after that me my aunt n linds went to starbucks for something to drink and then went to my aunts for like a half hour then went to my house. my mom was having a bunch of my family over and my annoying little 8 year old cousin was caame and like last weekk lindsay almost got into a fist fight with her haha so she came n we locked her out but somehow she got in and we pretended to sleep lol and she was being the brat that she is but then she got better. she brought in my brothers like plastic bbasketball and i dont know how it got started but me n linds were on my bed and she was on the other side of the room and we would throw the ball back and forth at eachother but we would honestly nail her right in the face omg it was so funny and then when she would get the ball we would fight her for it and you can like pick her up with one arm and we would like tackle her it was so funny. it was a fun weekendd

dont_x_cry @ 2005-03-17T18:19:00

2005-03-17T23:15:59Z

damn colddddddddddddddddddddddddd

dont_x_cry @ 2005-03-05T14:49:00

2005-03-05T20:02:36Z

so i had a cold and it just got so much worse when i woke up this morning! yes! so then my aunt n dad came over to talk to my awessssooomeee brother who is so completly worthless its not even funny. and i dont even feel bad saying that because he doesnt even care about anything except getting fucked up. so my dad mom n aunt were talking to him in the other room and of course i had to listen to it and they told him either go to rehab or get out of the house and he still insists that he doesnt have a drug problem which is funny because i swear i dont walk into him room n always see him blowing something with his friends. i dont tell on him though because hes got shit on me and im not gay like that but i guess one of his friends talked to my mom yesterday and said he was addicted to oxys which doesnt suprise me i kinda knew it anyway. he does anything he can do and hes either going to go to jail or end up dead hes already been arrested 3 times. hes going to be 18 in 9 days and then my mom can kick him out but i doubt she will ever do it. she says she will but it wont happen or if it does it will last like a day.like of course i love him hes my brother but i hate him so much hes so fucking fucked up though like he can steal from his own family how low can u get? honestly. he took like 70 dollars from my dad a couple days ago when my dad is the one paying for a lawyer to get him out of trouble he takes from my mom but now its hard because she has to sleep with her pocketbook in her freaking bed. he takes money from me and from my older sister. he seriously neeeds something to show him that he has a big problem but nothing is working he already went to rehab 2 times n right when he got out he went back to it and got even worse then he was before. its also the assholes he hangs out with. they think there so big n bad n tough when no one likes them because they are scum. i know i sound like a complete asshole saying this about my own brother but we honestly hardly talk and when we do we ussually fight about something. we used to be so close and now either im not here or hes not here and when we are here we hardly speak. he has anger issues my mom wouldnt give him the phone so he goes upstairs takes the closet door off and throws it down the stairs. hes real cool. he ruins everything. like i could never even have any of my friends here besides my girl friends because he would probably be a complete dick to every single one of them and thats not fair at all . i put up with his asshole friends and when there here i go in my fucking room. why should i have to do that when its my fucking house. now hes with my dad n my mom wants him to stay there for a little bit but i want him to stay there for good. all he does is causse my mom so much shit and she doesnt need it. he doesnt care about anyone but himself and i dont feel bad for him one bit because he choses to do what he does and if he wanted to stop doing what hes doing he could but he doesnt. i know no one probably read this long ass thing but i had to get it out somewhere.

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-23T00:46:00

2005-02-23T05:44:22Z

i want to get my nose peirced. like a tiny earing they are so freaking awesome

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-21T00:33:00

2005-02-21T05:33:22Z

err....why do i even care?

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-18T20:28:00

2005-02-19T01:32:24Z

im at brendans and im so boreddddddddddddddddd i drank rum tonight yes thats righght ummmmmm idk whrre sam is that hoe jk i love her and brendan n linds idk where they are eitether and then this girl sam n davce are on the couch..sam was dribnving before that wwas indstereasting uimmmmmmmm i loveu some fucking sluts were at my house tonight and i wish me linds n sam were thrrere omg thayt made myt weeek that they were gonna be tiehere and then they werennt,m soo im mad and im so botred soo um i need to mleavce

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-15T18:43:00

2005-02-16T00:03:07Z

so today absolutly sucked. valentines day sucked. everything just sucks.
i watched the notebook today and cryed harder then ever then i got a headache i talked to my best friendssss on the phone

another thing is i cant even remember the last time i talked to my brother i live in the same house with him and see him everyday but i can not tell you the last time we spoke to eachother its really pathetic. i would talk to him but everyday hes doing some sort of drug and its really sad me and him used to be so freaking close and now we dont speak. reallly cool

oh well

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-09T18:10:00

2005-02-09T23:13:06Z

so me and lindsay came heere after school and we set up my dvd player i didnt think we were going to be able to figure it out but we did it! then we watched the notebook!!!! we cryed so freaking hard. now i have a headache. after the movie was over we went back to the really good parts and watched them over and cryed some more and then watched the deleted scenes<333 i fucking love that movie so much

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-08T15:31:00

2005-02-08T20:29:37Z

yesss my mom got me the notebook! <333

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-06T14:23:00

2005-02-06T19:23:02Z

this weeekend was weirdddddddddddd

dont_x_cry @ 2005-02-01T20:24:00

2005-02-02T01:22:37Z

so much damn drama.jesus

dont_x_cry @ 2005-01-27T15:39:00

2005-01-27T20:38:17Z

me and lindsay just watched the part in the little mermaid where the priest pops a boner hahaha fucking sick disney movies.

dont_x_cry @ 2005-01-25T22:51:00

2005-01-26T03:50:10Z

hmmm.. we talked today<333333

dont_x_cry @ 2005-01-22T11:42:00

2005-01-22T16:43:46Z

i love lindsay& no1 else.. except sam and ashley

dont_x_cry @ 2005-01-13T21:09:00

2005-01-14T02:08:55Z

what to do what to do </3

dont_x_cry @ 2005-01-08T16:18:00

2005-01-08T21:27:09Z

alright last night was good and bad

went to adams with everyone and drank and then went to brendans n then justin called me n said him n dan were gonna come meet me so i was like whatever call me when u want me to come out so then sam was all upset because of some stuff n i was comforting her<333 uhhh thenn out of no where i get a call from someone who i havent talked to in months n ughhh whyyyy meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then justin just appeared n we left n then when we were going to meet ryan sileo n a car went by then stoped n went back n it was my brother n all his cool friends so i had to wait because he was using my phone then sam appeared n then we started walking n saw ryan andrew n joey then everyone left cept for me dan n ryan n dans dad brought me back to brendans n then we left like 15 min later n got to lindsays n sam got run over hahahahahaha im so serious to its funny but its so bad i felt so bad for her

so me ash linds n sam are all in lindsays room n dan calls me n he gets all bitchy n mad because of what happened n says hes going to sleep which is what he always does and doesnt solve anythingggggg!!!!!god

we all woke up at like 11:00 and went to friendlys it was real good we said it was one of are birthdays excepting to get icecream but the fucks didnt do it so we waited for a while in like the front thing n harrassed each n every person that walked by<3 god were cool

dont_x_cry @ 2005-01-01T13:18:00

2005-01-01T18:12:16Z

happy new yearss

last night was fun <3

dont_x_cry @ 2004-12-28T11:03:00

2004-12-28T16:04:41Z

last night was prettttty funnnny me n linds went to adams with brendan and we had funnn ;) and then jerry came n he went n got sammmy n then she had some fun ;) and me n her n jerry left to go get dan n then we came back to adams n we had to go so we went to some park that i cant spell and my freaking brother was there! it was bad so we left and went somewhere n ended up at the pavilion and frank was meeting us n he came with all these people n sam threw her lolipop right at the car n the girls were giving her dirty looks it was funnny.then we went to subway to meet brendan n lindsay n sam was like come to the bathroom with me so we go and open the door because its not even like closed all the way n isnt locked so we open it n some old guy was in there and he was like "oh god damn" omg i almost peed myself it was soo funny.then my mom called me n was like why are u with adam rushworth hes all drunk because hes fucking stupid n left a messege on my machine. so i had to go n then i came home n she was fine n i went to bed but my phone woke me up n i talked to dan for a while <3

dont_x_cry @ 2004-12-23T22:29:00

2004-12-24T03:27:14Z

today had schoool did nothingg then after school i went over dans n we watched some weird movie i forget the name then justin n ryan came over later on n we ended up going to ryans at like 530 and we me dan justin n ryan were at ryans basically the whole night i must say i kick ass at video gamess:O <33. mark andrew n joey came to ryans later on and we left n i gott pickedd upp and now im homeeeeeee <33333

dont_x_cry @ 2004-12-21T21:33:00

2004-12-22T02:27:25Z

olive garden...amazing

dont_x_cry @ 2004-12-19T09:27:00

2004-12-19T14:37:19Z

friday was worthless.then yesterday i went out to lunch with my dad n then i finallllyyy got my bindings n boats for my snowboard it looks so gooodd...then i went back to his house n my sister came n we went homee. i went homee n then i came to lindsays around like 6.gott ready and her parents just magically appeared again hah it was weirdd. we went to the greeks and then to shop rite n we left with brendan

uhh then we went to taco bell n justin came in the car with us n we left n got juice n went downtown to meet dan n justin n then we all got in brendans car i dont even know how and went to silver sands. thennn dan n justin had to go to we left n brought them n then we went to a gas station because i neeeded to pee and justin wanted beef jerky..i peeed and got in a fight with a pricker bush haha yeaaaaaaaaa
came back to linds at like 1130 and were laughing are asses offfff and then she was on the phone with brendaan n i was on the phone with dan n we both went to sleep n now im uppp and that bitch is still sleeppingg <3